Reversal of fortunes!!!!

Sometimes my current reversal of fortunes hits hard when I least expect it. It’s all about a shift in lifestyle and the way you look at money. On occasion though I forget that the world is a different place for me, that leads to some somber moments. I wish I didn’t live in this world of delusions sometimes. I know better to dwell on the past, but without the “backing” I don’t feel like I can be myself in some situations or take any risks any longer. I am having trouble feeling worthwhile without bringing anything to the table, I can’t buy affection anymore, I can’t “but my way” into things that most people work for. I am just a little “gun shy” without knowing that I can take care of myself I suppose.. I had some great times. I guess its time to say “I’ll be back, I will show you”....... nice touch huh?